Times are really testing !!
Or maybe everything is simple and I am complicating it...guess it's always simple...
Simple if tremendous storm of thoughts, zillion neuron interactions would calm down to take a breath...
It's not like holding sand..no matter how hard it's clutched, it moves on...
It's something totally erratic...
For me at least...
One hand clutches the beloved dream with enormous passion and emotions....It knows the heartbeats that raise when it's in that dream...
It knows the grin that the dream brings...it knows the beauty and purity of the dream...
The other hand thinks logically I guess...wants to move away..run away...wants to twitch the neck and look the other way...wants to leave and live in peace, if at all it is destined to get it...wants to let go...
Finally the clasp wins..it's just always too hard to let go!
Almost impossible !
Impossible isn't a word in my dictionary but yeah it's gravely difficult for sure !!
Once the spirit was like a waterfall...(Yosemite falls are personal favorite)
Full of marvelous capabilities to win the world and all the hearts...
Now it's a stagnant river !!!
Lost it's way and as if stuck there forever !!
But...HOPE is always there...
That crazy hope which makes you think and crave for a moment of free fall...!
A moment of dignified and real time happiness!
A moment of rebirth !